What Is True For Me Right Now 8/?

Today, I was reminded in practice that presence is a cure.

Despite the neutrality of my dreams, I woke up with a heavy sadness upon Me. I did a mental search for the source and I came up with a recurring feeling of aloneness. In retrospect, I think this thought and feeling keeps coming to Me as guidance to sink deeper within. I tried to cure my feelings of aloneness with others, but I think I needed to be reminded that I am my best company.

I slowly made my way into some sweats and outside for a walk. I couldn’t think of anything to listen to that wouldn’t draw the sadness out even further, that was a sign. I kept my airpods in my pocket and decided to walk in silence, with just the backdrop of nature and my feet hitting the ground. The difference was made almost immediately.

The sadness didn’t necessarily disappear, but with my breath and my attention on the moment I was in, I was able to see that my state isn’t actually sadness, sadness is just visiting. It’s come to bring Me a message, that I’m now open to receiving. In presence, my body gave Me signals, and because I wasn’t distracted by anything, I was able to immediately catch what was being asked of Me.

Being so close to the lake, I felt a bit cold, so I decided to walk away from the lake instead of toward it, as I usually would, making my walk more pleasant, right away. I saw a really cool car and following my initial impulse to take a picture and share it via text, brought Me some joy. Everything that I was able to notice that I was called to, came to Me because I was present. These little things that made my time a little lighter, a little more filled with joy - it’s why I don’t feel so sad as I write this, even though so little time has passed.

The solution is often not a solution at all - it’s not a matter of solving, of figuring out. It’s in our willingness to be where We are, and to be open to finding what We need in the moment We’re in. Sometimes We place our healing so far from us, after this happens, once We accomplish that - but there’s so much right where We stand. We just have to remember to tap in.

I’m so thankful.